Once again the old year ends, and a new one begins. My blessings are many; my regrets in life too. But, none are greater than the ones when I spend too much time doing ‘my thing,’ sometimes cutting myself off at times when I could be spending more time with those I love; times when I was so obsessed or possessed with/by my writing that I could not get up and just walk away from my computer long enough to do something else. A friend recently told me that when she read posts on my blog she did not get a true sense of the person I am, the one she has come to know because of the time we’ve spent together, and feels she has come to know the ‘real’ me, the one who opens up and shares things not shared on the blog, Facebook or Twitter. I was surprised at that and hoped I had not been that vague in my writing.
In writing non-fiction I try to choose my thoughts and words carefully so as not to reveal too much about my private life. In writing prose we convey our thoughts and perspective viewpoints. But, many times my own perspective or view on things in life is too private to share openly with a world of bloggers or readers who know me only through what I write, and even less through comments or replies posted. By nature I am a more introverted or private person. Maybe, that is why I love writing fiction, living for a time in another one’s world, fictional though it be. When I write fiction I enter the ‘Make believe’ world of my characters while temporarily stepping out of my own shoes. I have spent hours, even wakeful nights in bed and days thinking how, or what next to write in their story to bring my characters to ‘life’ so I can hook my readers. But, we live in a real world where there needs to be balance. Although I have a passion for writing, it is not my whole life. My life at times gets off kilter and then I realize there is need for a change, even if it is a small one.
When I spend too much time at my computer more important things get pushed aside. Then I have regrets that I did not organize or use my time more productively. But, with every new day, every new year there is always room for change. I’m not making this a ‘New Years Resolution,’ because I so often fail at those before the end of the year. But, I do hope to make a more concerted effort to get up and walk away from the computer before I feel as if I cannot.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🙂
Joyce E. Johnson (2014)